Valentine's Day is just one more reminder of the fact that I used to be in love. One more day for me to remember what it felt like for someone to love me. One more day I remember what it was like to have flowers delivered to my office unexpectedly. One more day I feel lonely.
Except that it's worse. Because it's also the day many people make a point of turning into a couples holiday. Partners who fight constantly stop fighting. And there's always one annoying girl who thinks that it's important for every person she knows to pair up with someone else because it's Valentine's Day.
Even if I wanted to say I was going to boycott I couldn't because everyone I see all day wouldn't be and they'd force me to participate in one way or another. Plus, saying you're not "celebrating" Valentine's Day has always seemed kind of childish and passive aggressive to me. As though you're bitter you don't have someone while the rest of the world pretends they do. It seems so pointless.
I am not bitter. Though I am lonely sometimes. I just miss being the object of another's affection from time to time. And I don't like the falsified romance of this "holiday". I'll still put on a happy face
(and maybe my tutu) and pretend I like it as much as everyone else so I don't have to explain my viewpoint.
Bah, humbug. And all that jazz.