I don't own a scale, which is something I've thought about reconsidering on and off for the last couple of weeks.
I wanted to try the plan where I give myself certain rewards for reaching certain weights, but even that takes a lot of willpower and I'm afraid I'll get overwhelmed if I have access to a scale every day. It's really hard for me not to weigh myself all the time if I have a scale, so I'm still deciding what I want to do on that front.
Right now I'm just gauging based on how I feel and how my clothes are fitting. This seems like a good goal, especially since my primary concern is changing my lifestyle. How I feel has been a huge indicator and even though sometimes things get annoying I can see myself continuing what I've been doing because I feel good.
Some things are getting easier and some things are not.
For instance, I don't really have many cravings anymore, even for sugar, which I was totally hooked on. I think it's partly because I'm breaking the addiction and partly because I eat nutrient-rich foods and drink tons of water and green tea all day, so there's nothing my body is trying to ask for. I'm also not hungry all the time, which is nice. But I've based so much of my food preparation in satisfying cravings that I sometimes don't know what to do with myself.
The hardest part is when I don't feel like cooking. I haven't mastered making food and freezing for during the week yet, so on nights where I don't feel like cooking I get a little lost. I can't bring myself to just eat some pizza or pasta, which would have been my go-to in the past, but I don't want to take the time to make a full meal. God forbid I need to go to the grocery store.
This was part of my problem before I changed my diet, as well. But I was just eating whatever then.
This week I intend to make a meal plan and do a bunch of the prep-work on Sunday, which will really help me during the week. Also, it will be better for my finances than buying salads at Trader Joe's when I didn't make dinner the night before, even though they are delicious.
At just over two weeks I've reached the point where I would usually start to revert to my old ways. Because I'm lazy and habitual. The thing is, I've already noticed enough of a difference in my body in multiple ways that my willpower is stronger than it has been before.
My pants are looser. My skin is softer. My face has cleared up substantially-- I didn't have that many zits before but there is definitely a huge difference there. I have more energy; I'm not super cranky and lethargic when I get home from work. I feel healthier. More inspired, actually.
I'm not willing to give up on this yet.
Especially when I finally feel like getting back in my skinny jeans might really be possible. Also, I really want to be able to jog for more than five seconds. Like, really bad. But right now jogging is irritating because it entails a lot more wiggling than I really want it to.
I guess the only way to make progress on that front is to keep trying.