This year I'm making some things different.
I'm refusing to make any resolutions. It's just a list of shit I wish I were doing on a regular basis or want to accomplish that I'll forget about before April. Instead I'm basically forcing myself to be stronger than I have been in the last couple of years. While I've been at school I've allowed myself to become soft and lazy. Again.
The first thing I want to work on is actually having willpower.
I have wanted to lost weight and take better care of myself for a while, but I haven't. Or I have for a few days and then I wanted pizza. Or I just didn't eat for a few days and then went back to normal. Not healthy.
No more snacking because I'm bored and maybe a little hungry. No more drinking juice and tea instead of water. Yes, water is super fucking boring to drink. But I'm getting used to it. My pee is clear and that's pretty cool.
It's hard to work on the other thing I'm concerned about accomplishing while I'm still on vacation, but I want to make sure I don't procrastinate like I have been.
Actually, I can't afford to this semester. Financial aid fucked me over a little bit for my last semester as an undergrad and now there's no way I can manage to not work this semester. Not that I haven't been working at all, but I need something where I will make enough to pay rent. This means I'll continue doing my advertising work for my boss in Redding but I need a part time retail job or something equally shitty to help pay my bills. Thank God I paid off my car in June.
So, treating my body better. Getting a job and being responsible again. Not procrastinating on homework or work. These are my self-improvement goals not for this year but for in general.
And I would really like to get back to this blog. I miss it. Quite a bit. I just haven't felt like any of my stories lately were worth telling. Or I didn't have time and forgot them. I want to work on not doing that anymore.
Oh, God. The recorded show my dad was watching before he went to bed ended and the TV automatically went back to the channel he had it on before he changed it to the DVR. TV minister is selling Miracle Spring Water. It's like his salesman preacher voice is boring into my brain. Like those Yeerk things in Animorphs. I'm the only one who can change the channel. It's in the other room.
I have to go.
P.S. 2013 sucked balls and I'm glad it's over. 2014 will be awesome. Because I said so.